how come i can't get the past out of my mind???
it's pissen me off!!!!! STOP REMINDING ME!!!!!!!! i dnt want to think about certain things, but i do!!
i am so sick of feeling like crap!! UGH!!! fights, heart breaks, lossed friends, physical damage, no respect, never good enough....it's getting old!
i feel like i'm in a time warp! nothing ever seems to want to stay good for a long time!
i also feel like i'm alone! i know i'm not! but i feel liek it! idk y i do!! i just do!! i want it all to just STOP!!!!
i scream into my pillow, but i just end up crying into my pillow, but that turns into crying blood from my wrists! and that turns into friends turning their backs on me! then i really am alone!!

i feel like i'm broken and can't be repaird! i feel as if i'm a lost cause thats only lost cuz i've been forgotten! i'm still here! i scream out loud, but no one hears me!
UGH!!!
JUST MAKE IT ALL STOP AND GO AWAY!!!
i dnt want to remeber! i want to forget! i cause pain and i'm sick of it!!

PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want reason to go on....please someone give me reason!! please, i'm begging for a reason!



Ps. my finger hurts REALY REALY bad!